
An Authentic Self Connects With Her Future Self
Hello everyone. This is a Guest Post written by a personal friend of mine.
I’d like to introduce you to Deanna. She works in community health care with older adults as a Case Manager.
Like so many of us, she has been on a quest to connect with her life purpose and to apply it in her everyday life.
As an avid reader and promoter of self-development, she has struck out on her journey with determination.
She employed life coaching services with Crimson Compass and was guided on a Future Self meditation.
This is an inner journey where a person is invited to imagine the possibilities beyond the limits they’ve imposed; beyond what they believe is realistic. The Future Self is the core self that a person is becoming on the path to fulfillment.
This journey taps into the intuitive, internal knowing and enables a person to bring this clarity into the light of their current lives.
It’s a challenge to solve problems and achieve goals while feeling influenced by troubling or confusing life circumstances. Having a Future Self identity will give a person a persona to step into to reflect on their life from a different perspective.
Deanna has been exploring this idea on her quest to come up with a Life Purpose Statement and while reflecting on this, she was inspired to write this story. I have ask for her permission to share it.
If you have comments for Deanna, she would be excited to be a blogger for a day and respond to them. And so here, unedited, is Deanna’s story.
The Story of the Wooden Chest
There’s a chest, a big, clunky wooden chest, upstairs in the attic. I’ve just discovered it. Or perhaps, more truthfully, I’ve only noticed that it’s always been there. I can’t decide if I should be surprised, but somehow I don’t think I am.
The attic isn’t familiar to me. It’s not a room in the house where I currently live and I don’t recognize this space. And yet, this attic, this place where the chest resides, is welcoming me and it seems perfectly natural that I should be here.
The chest is old. But then again, I’m not very adept at determining the age of anything, so it’s easy for me to say ‘it’s old’. But it is; it just looks old. Like it’s been sitting in this spot forever, waiting to be found.
The top is steeply curved, which gives it an overall appearance of something rather large and imposing. But the colour is a deep, rich brown, and it is rather inviting. There are wide metal straps embedded on the top and sides, seeming to hold it together, although I’m not sure these are terribly necessary. It gives me no clue that it’s about to fall apart.
The wood itself is nothing exotic, like mahogany or some other rare or extinct species of wood. It’s just brown, ordinary wood, but nevertheless very appealing in a basic and solid kind of way. Like you’d expect an old friend to be, a little weathered and worn, but familiar and waiting to tell you a grand story about where he’s just been.
I have a lantern in my hand. It’s kind of old fashioned in itself, and not a typical thing I’d carry with me into an attic. Usually I’d have a flashlight, but somehow a flashlight seems poorly suited to the job. The lantern seems just the right thing for me to carry, and it surprises me I knew that. I didn’t have to think about it.
However, I notice that I really don’t need much of a light at all, because the chest is sitting near a small, rectangular shaped window, letting in the right amount of diffuse, soft early afternoon light. The warm glow of the lantern was more than enough to get me here, so I extinguish it.
It seems odd to me that there isn’t a lot of clutter or piles of old junk around this chest. Not much by way of cobwebs, dust or litter either. It’s rather quiet, neat, and tidy up here. There’s just the chest and me alone together, in this space.
I pause for a little while. Shall I open the lid? Of course I know I will. It seems to me this is what I’m supposed to do. Why the hesitation? Out of respect perhaps, it occurs to me. What’s the hurry, after all?
I examine the front of the chest, looking for a lock, and although there is a latch, it opens easily, without a key. I lift the latch and push back on the lid, so the top is fully open. I remain on my knees, in front of the chest. I don’t feel the urge to stand. This works well. I’m comfortable.
I’m not sure if it’s the light from the window or something else in my eyes, but now there seems to be something bright and rather all encompassing in front of me. It takes me a few minutes to realize it’s coming from inside the chest.
When I look more closely, it occurs to me it’s mostly a simple, pure light that I see. But it’s not blinding. It’s soft and yet is sufficient to illuminate the entire inside of the chest. At first glance, I can’t see anything beyond the light. When I focus, I begin to make out a blue striped fabric lining, and the outline of a few objects.
The first object is a collection of five to six glass marbles. They seem fairly average in appearance to me. But I pick them up and roll them around in the palm of my hand. They feel cool and smooth to the touch and seem to be telling me to ensure I have some fun. The kind of fun you have when you’re little, and not too worried about much of anything.
Then I notice, and how could I not, the rather large hand quilted blanket in the right hand side of the chest, occupying a good bit of space. I take it out, and see that someone has put a great deal of effort into piecing this together. Is this especially for me? What a comforting thought! I dare not wrap it around my shoulders, just yet. Maybe I’m supposed to wait for something, to use it at its best.
My eyes stray to an elongated cardboard box, not quite standard paper size, and only a couple of inches high. When I open it, there are several sheets of blank paper, finely textured, pearl white, demanding thoughtful recording. It occurs to me that I’m simply required to ‘be reflective’.
Then I see another small, square box in the far left hand corner of the chest. When I open this one, there are several ‘nuggets’ that for some reason I immediately recognize as fuel for my lamp. I also know that this is enough fuel to last indefinitely, to light my way and for others who follow. Isn’t that amazing?
Ah ha, so now I understand what’s going on. This is a chest of gifts dedicated to self-care. My wise future self sent this to me, knowing that in order to be a guide to others on my journey I must first take good care of myself.
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Imagine that you have come across a wooden chest in your attic. When you lift the lid, what items are waiting there to support you?
Or, if you were going to put items into it that symbolize your strengths what would they be?
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December 12, 2008 at 4:34 am
Deanna
Hi, Davina,
Thanks for sharing my story. I hope your readers enjoy it. Please share your comments with me. I’d love to know what kind of impression this created for you.
December 12, 2008 at 4:48 am
davinahaisell
Hi Deanna.
You are welcome! It is a lovely story. Thanks for giving me the permission to share it.
December 12, 2008 at 12:08 pm
Betsy
Hi Deanna and Davina – I, for one, would like to hear updates as to what you do with the gifts and when you need them! I’m going to be thinking of the image of the lit chest all day now, as well as what it represents.
December 12, 2008 at 3:34 pm
Dot
Deanna, you have a very kind face. That was a fascinating meditation. Like Betsy, I’ll be thinking about a chest, and if I had one, what would it contain. I once found a chest like that left for the trash on the street in Brooklyn, NY. It even had a blue-and-white lining of paper. Inside were a few items of men’s clothing.
December 12, 2008 at 8:07 pm
Julie
Deanna and Davina, hi!
Self-guided meditation is a wonderful tool, isn’t it! I must say, though, the “self” part is a little tricky, and that’s where you come in, Davina.
My personal experiences show me that I’m better off eliminating the “self” and leaving it at simply “guided”—by someone else!
When I had successful sessions, they were always guided by an expert. With them doing the coaching, I was able to do the letting go. I find that partnership necessary, as my mind’s always so active! But OH! the results!! The outcomes, what I experienced…wow, so impactful and HELPFUL! Both sessions had different results. One, I spontaneously started crying, releasing so much I hadn’t known was suppressed—and simultaneously realizing EXACTLY what my blockage had been. In the other, I “saw” myself, my real self, being and living exactly as I am MEANT to do. Simply amazing.
Why these guided meditations work, rather how they work, I don’t know. But I do know the results are truly beneficial!
Deanna, thank you for sharing your experience with us! Davina, it’s wonderful that you are able to help others with such a great tool!
December 12, 2008 at 9:00 pm
Cath Lawson
Hi Davina and Deanna, This was really interesting. Call me stupid – but what exactly is a guided meditation? I have been meditating at home and recently downloaded a sample of the Silva system, where they guy on the download tells you what to do and what to visualize. Does it work the same way as that?
December 13, 2008 at 12:04 am
Deanna
Hi, Betsy,
I think I’m going to trust that ‘what I’m to do’ will reveal itself as I go along, much as the story itself did. The story simply emerged (if there is anything that simple…). I didn’t concoct it or ‘try’ to develop it. If anything amazes me, this does. The rest should be easy, right? Ha, ha. I should tell you it’s difficult for me to allow things to happen. For much of my life I was in control or thought I was. How refreshing to know the answer is no.
Hi, Dot,
What a great story about New York. Interesting to me that you see a kind face (mine) looking back at you. I almost never seem to know what kind of impression I leave in the world.
Hi, Julie,
I’m with you on the self-guided thing – I can’t see doing it on my own either. Davina was essential to the process. She has such gentle qualities and seems so sure that this is doable, you can’t fail at it.
Hi, Cath,
Best talk to Davina about explaining the ‘how to’ around guided meditation, but I can tell you what it feels like! It’s scary, it’s exhilarating, and like taking a huge step into the unknown. A friendly unknown, but unfamiliar all the same. At the same time…once you ‘land’ it’s a relief. What you ‘see’ in front of you is a warm and welcoming future self. I’m also pretty sure that you need time with the experience…you can’t possibly know everything about it all at once. I’m still ‘sitting’ with my future self, and I’m quite certain it will be a long relationship.
December 13, 2008 at 12:57 am
Patricia
Fascinating writing and good post about your guided meditations and future visioning. People are so amazed at what they discover – it is a bit like magic and it is so powerful and instructive.
The trunk in the attic is as though one expected her past to be recovered not her future and self care, but maybe by opening the trunk her past was integrated into the present ( both meanings of the word present) and her self care was revealed as the transportation to the future’s vision gift?
Since the peak of creativity is about 65 for women I am working on preparing the way for myself to be most Open to the journey ( the peak of imagination is about age 5-6 because they have so few life experiences)
Nice job and good explanations…let’s do this at our blogger’s conference at Barbara’s ….and let’s get Cath to come to it!?
December 13, 2008 at 3:10 am
davinahaisell
Hi Betsy.
I’m curious to see what Deanna will make of these gifts too.
Hi Dot.
Your comment was to Deanna, so I’ll just say hi
Hi Julie.
Thank you. I feel the same way as you do. It is much easier to relax into a meditation when guided by someone other than my own thoughts or directions.
Your sessions sound very powerful. I can feel the enthusiasm in your sharing
Hi Cath.
You are correct; a guided meditation takes two. The Future Self meditation guides you through a process where you reveal existing potential that has just been forgotten or buried under self-imposed limitations.
Deanna’s story came about after her Future Self meditation, while reflecting on what it meant to her.
Hi Patricia.
I won’t speak for Deanna, but my interpretation was that the trunk represents the container of her old belief system. One that has been well worn throughout her life, but also contains some newness that she hadn’t considered before. I’ll leave the floor to Deanna to share what it meant to her.
I wasn’t aware of a blogger’s conference… sounds interesting. When is it happening?
December 13, 2008 at 10:57 am
Lance
Hi Davina and Deanna,
It’s nice to meet you Deanna! Davina has done a great job of helping you view your future self through this guided meditation – very cool!
I have done something similar recently – in my case looking at my life as a museum, and what different rooms of the museum are like now, and what I would want to be different.
I really like the idea of the chest – and what it contains for us. Thank you, Deanna, for sharing this whole experience, and really what was in it for you. You did a great job as “blogger for the day” here on Davina’s site!!
December 13, 2008 at 1:49 pm
Liara Covert
I am fond of philosophical journeys. The meditation in this post reminds me of some of the dreams people have shared with me in their quest for greater self-understanding. Human beings are often consciously unaware they already have the tools, skills or answers they are seeking. Each person is like a treasure chest filled with untapped potential and self-knowledge. Each person is also the source of unlimited light or illumination. Learning is a choice. It relates to a mindset and will to evolve.
December 13, 2008 at 9:33 pm
Marelisa
Hi Davina, Hi Deanna: I have a beautiful wooden chest that functions as my living room table (it sounds strange but it actually looks really beautiful). It’s empty right now and I’d never thought of putting anything in it. But after reading this I’m thinking I might start collecting items that symbolize some of the things that I want to achieve in the future and put them in there. Thank you for the idea
December 14, 2008 at 5:01 am
davinahaisell
Hi Lance.
That’s a really cool idea to look at your life as a museum. Did you learn anything you care to share? *smile*
Hi Liara.
Yes we seem to be very good at covering things up and forgetting how brilliant we are! I like to think of us in comparison to a treasure chest. That is what spoke to me about Deanna’s story. I’m so glad that she shared it.
Hi Marelisa.
I’m glad you liked the idea. I bet that wooden chest of yours is beautiful. Have fun filling it up with treasures!
December 14, 2008 at 6:55 pm
Deanna
Hi, Patricia,
I had to really ponder your comments. I suppose this is because I didn’t “think” it through as I was writing the story. I gave little if any thought to symbolism…each piece naturally came to me. However, the chest is reminiscent of an old trunk I found in an antique shop, and the quilt is part of my family history. I come from a long line of very talented quilters (not me personally though!!). So there are bits and pieces that could represent the past and where I’ve been. I had a strong feeling though when I did this, that I was entirely in the present moment.
Hi, Lance,
Your own story about the museum made me realize that I can keep playing with this notion of my future and emerging self. Who knows what else I will come up with? Thank you for the compliment about blogging…as Davina can tell you, this is a whole new experience for me. It’s great to do new things!
Hi, Liara,
I take your comments to heart. I too think we have the answers already. As adults there are so many masks we wear and layers of self-protection it’s hard to get beyond that and trust we know.
Hi, Marelisa,
My antique trunk used to be a living room table too. In my imagination I guess it got moved to an attic. When I step back from the story now and really look at it, I see that my concept of an attic is a mysterious and exciting place, locking away secrets waiting for discovery. The trunk gave me a tangible reason to set about exploring some truths about myself.
Hi, Davina,
Thanks again to you too, for all your insightful and encouraging comments.
December 14, 2008 at 7:34 pm
davinahaisell
Hi Deanna.
You are welcome. You are truly doing a terrific job; I have enjoyed reading your responses and I’m happy to share this space with you.
I know everyone would be curious to know how your story plays out. Maybe I can tempt you to share another story soon in the new year.
December 15, 2008 at 1:32 am
Stacey / Create a Balance
Deanna, Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. I’m a true believer in taking good care of yourself first before being a guide for others on their journeys. Hidden in my wooden chest would be a masseuse, a personal chef, and a life coach.
December 15, 2008 at 7:44 am
davinahaisell
Hi Stacey.
Deanna will be round to chat with you, but I couldn’t resist saying right on about the items in your wooden chest. Yah! Especially the chef, (love a man who can cook).
December 15, 2008 at 1:54 pm
Al at 7P
Hi Deanna – I really enjoyed reading this post. It’s a great reminder for all of us to use that chest in our attic.
(Hi Davina – what a nice guest post!)
December 16, 2008 at 3:21 am
Deanna
Hi, Stacey,
I’m not so good at ‘self care’ (who is?). But take a lesson, right? I can be in such a hurry to get ‘somewhere’ that I neglect this very important element. You are absolutely right; it’s difficult to support others if we are depleted. I’m intrigued to see what else I might find in that chest…
Hi, Al,
I’m glad you enjoyed the story. Your feedback, and from others, has been very humbling for me. I appreciate you taking the time!
December 16, 2008 at 4:07 am
davinahaisell
Hi there Al.
Great to see you back here; thanks for popping by. I’m glad you enjoyed the post.
December 17, 2008 at 2:45 am
Barbara Swafford
Hi Davina and Deanna – It’s nice meeting you Deanna, and it so kind of Davina to share her space in blogosphere so you could tell your story.
The quilt you described reminds me of a quilt my mother (who has since passed away) made for me many years ago. When I lived in Alaska it kept me real warm and made me feel safe knowing it was made my her. Ironically I now have it packed safely inside an old trunk.
After reading your writings Deanna, I sense there may be a blogger inside of you. If so, you’ll have to keep us posted so we can come and visit you.
December 17, 2008 at 4:18 am
Deanna
Hi, Barbara,
Sounds like you and I have some things in common. I cherish the quilts my grandma and aunties made. My mother has also contributed to my collection. Some are wearing thin now, and I’ll have to let them go someday. But until then…
Davina seems to think there’s a blogger inside me too. I don’t know yet! You both could be right. Time will tell. All the best over the holiday season.
December 17, 2008 at 5:02 am
davinahaisell
Hi Barbara.
I think you’re right about Deanna being a blogger. I’d certainly like to read more from her.
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